So…
I did it! I’ve been accepted there! (I’m not gonna tell you where that is, I’m not gonna jinx anything) But sadly, no one but the marketing people congratulate me :( oh man, I just need some support here.
Speaking of which, I’ve had enough of being too kind to people, I’ve had enough of making other people happy, I’ve had enough of putting other people first.
1. I SHOULD BE MORE SELFISH
Why: I’m not talking big about myself but I’ve been bound so badly by my parents. They wouldn’t let me out of Jakarta because they’re so effing lonely. And why am I always crying here in Jakarta?
How: I’m getting accepted there, so I’ll just focus on my studies, not giving any shit to their problems, even when they try to drag me. I simply won’t give a shit.
2. I SHOULD PUT MYSELF FIRST
Why: I’m done making other people happy when the aftereffect is me crying so badly, having no one to talk to & almost making a call to a psychiatrist.
How: Do what makes me happy. I don’t care if some people get upset because of my decision. That’s life, dude.
3. I SHOULD BE MORE CONFIDENT OF MYSELF
Why: For an Asian where most of the girls are tiny & skinny with no boobs nor an ass, I’m considered big. Have I told you that I WAS bulimic? Due to the fact that my gran always criticizing on how I look, etc & my parents didn’t help either + the peer pressure + I AM ASIAN (No, I didn’t regret I was born Chinese, I just wish I wasn’t born here)
How: Real women have curves. I have curve. The kind of pretty that most people like didn’t have boobs nor an ass. I was just born on the wrong continent.
